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Exactly Not Dead
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Well, this is kind of awkward. I have not posted a journal in more than a year, and haven't even logged in for months. I guess it's for a cross of not having the time, ambition, or particular reason to do so. But I'll be getting some little side things done and I can post those fairly soon. Assumingly.
So if you wondered, I didn't get hit by a bus or anything. I'm just trying to stay on time of my projects so I can graduate in May. Did I tell you I was graduating in May? Right—so I'm graduating in May. And two days after I graduate I'm going to Japan for six weeks on a mission team. Then halfway through the summer I can get a job and start paying off debt, and get applications for grad school sent out. But I need to pass these classes first. Man...
That's my major downfall with academic settings. I have to think in a dozen directions, but I can really concentrate on only a few [read: maximum capacity of three] things at a time. [You know, so I can neglect two projects and get one working till I get bored and switch to another. Like project roulette.] But after I finish my portfolio class, next semester should be much easier. Should, ought to because it's way less credits. Also I need $4000 for the mission trip. Fun times!
And that's my life in a hamburger bun [not a big fan of nutshells]. So I'll be getting some art commissions done this week, uploading some other stuff, and fighting real-life doldrums of responsibility. Fortunately I never really grew out of the Mary Poppins mentality of making some chores fun, so it may not be as bad if I just do it. And once the major things are out of the way and I'm on break, I'll be doing more fan art and personal projects as a reward for surviving. [I'm motivated by parties—I'm such a shallow person.]
Here's to surviving another revolution around the sun, and let's all keep fighting, yo!
So if you wondered, I didn't get hit by a bus or anything. I'm just trying to stay on time of my projects so I can graduate in May. Did I tell you I was graduating in May? Right—so I'm graduating in May. And two days after I graduate I'm going to Japan for six weeks on a mission team. Then halfway through the summer I can get a job and start paying off debt, and get applications for grad school sent out. But I need to pass these classes first. Man...
That's my major downfall with academic settings. I have to think in a dozen directions, but I can really concentrate on only a few [read: maximum capacity of three] things at a time. [You know, so I can neglect two projects and get one working till I get bored and switch to another. Like project roulette.] But after I finish my portfolio class, next semester should be much easier. Should, ought to because it's way less credits. Also I need $4000 for the mission trip. Fun times!
And that's my life in a hamburger bun [not a big fan of nutshells]. So I'll be getting some art commissions done this week, uploading some other stuff, and fighting real-life doldrums of responsibility. Fortunately I never really grew out of the Mary Poppins mentality of making some chores fun, so it may not be as bad if I just do it. And once the major things are out of the way and I'm on break, I'll be doing more fan art and personal projects as a reward for surviving. [I'm motivated by parties—I'm such a shallow person.]
Here's to surviving another revolution around the sun, and let's all keep fighting, yo!
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More Junk and Stuff!
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Hey, check it out, I can legally consumer alcohol in nearly every country now! But I'm not going to do that because impairing my senses would be illogical. Plus there are better things to squander money on, such as CD's or education and other such nonsense.
Speaking of which, I'm halfway through my undergraduate career now. I passed my check, which means I get to stay as a graphic design major, Ooh-rah! Though the evaluation they gave me says that I need to work on "interpersonal communication, that I don't show much interest in things of higher worth, and that they can't read me at all. But they do think I'm philosophical for some reason, so I suppose I could fake that card, too. Assuming things go as they have been, as I continue to be single I plan on getting a master's degree in something along the lines of graphic design, or maybe Japanese. We'll see.
Some other things that have happened in the recent past:
I got a kitten for Christmas! While I was hoping that she'd be a shorthair when I picked her out, Quazo has turned out to be an uber-curious, smokey-black cloud of fluff that doesn't shed fur.
My grandfather has had both of his knees replaced, the most recent of which on my birthday. But that's OK because we all got together and celebrated the day before, so he got a fancy meal before his expulsion to the hospital.
I've become addicted to yet another substance... A comic involving vampires, ghosts, a really hyper guy who fancies himself a paranormal investigator, and a deadpan zombie without a name who narrates the misadventures. yes, I'm talking about Hanna Is Not a Boy's Name! by
. It's a lot of awesome cleverly packaged as a webcomic. I just happen to be particularly nerd-awed by some of the technical things like ingenious paneling and epic Pencil Tool action. I highly recommend checking it out.
Hopefully, along with my summer commitments to schoolwork, I'll be able to master contact juggling and maybe, just maybe, get a comic belted out that I started back in highschool. This would be no problem at all if I were able to make myself stick to a timetable, but the things that must be done will, eventually, get done.
Stay frosty!
Speaking of which, I'm halfway through my undergraduate career now. I passed my check, which means I get to stay as a graphic design major, Ooh-rah! Though the evaluation they gave me says that I need to work on "interpersonal communication, that I don't show much interest in things of higher worth, and that they can't read me at all. But they do think I'm philosophical for some reason, so I suppose I could fake that card, too. Assuming things go as they have been, as I continue to be single I plan on getting a master's degree in something along the lines of graphic design, or maybe Japanese. We'll see.
Some other things that have happened in the recent past:
I got a kitten for Christmas! While I was hoping that she'd be a shorthair when I picked her out, Quazo has turned out to be an uber-curious, smokey-black cloud of fluff that doesn't shed fur.
My grandfather has had both of his knees replaced, the most recent of which on my birthday. But that's OK because we all got together and celebrated the day before, so he got a fancy meal before his expulsion to the hospital.
I've become addicted to yet another substance... A comic involving vampires, ghosts, a really hyper guy who fancies himself a paranormal investigator, and a deadpan zombie without a name who narrates the misadventures. yes, I'm talking about Hanna Is Not a Boy's Name! by
. It's a lot of awesome cleverly packaged as a webcomic. I just happen to be particularly nerd-awed by some of the technical things like ingenious paneling and epic Pencil Tool action. I highly recommend checking it out.Hopefully, along with my summer commitments to schoolwork, I'll be able to master contact juggling and maybe, just maybe, get a comic belted out that I started back in highschool. This would be no problem at all if I were able to make myself stick to a timetable, but the things that must be done will, eventually, get done.
Stay frosty!
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To the most beautiful cat...
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I've been crying all day. While I was at university I was able to keep it pretty much under control, but at home I'm just exhausted from sobbing so much. Doesn't help that I'm still trying to catch up on projects from when I was out sick last week. This will be an especially painful weekend. Now, I'm not a very poetic person, and rarely do I try to explain myself to people, but this is a very poignant issue to me. So if you read this, listen up, because this is a rare appearance of my person, and right now I feel like I don't want to ever move this off the front journal page here.
Today my wonderful cat, Crystal, had to be put to sleep from irreparable health difficulties.
She was a gift from my parents for my 7th birthday, rescued from an animal shelter as a kitten. She loved being around members of the family, a real people-cat. Beautiful solid black coat, except for two very small patched of brown-black tabby on the inside of her two front paws and for the white hairs when she got older. The very last few bones in her tail had been broken at some point and healed at awkward angles, which you could tell only by stroking the end of her tail.
After a few years she developed nasty sores and started hiding in dark, cool places around the house. She developed allergies to the food we were giving her, so we tried giving her a different brand. Then we tried giving her an expensive rabbit-and-peas hypoallergenic food from the vet which worked for a long time, until she got sick of that texture and vomited all the time. For the past couple years we made our own formula of rice and chicken, though like anyone she tried picking out as much of the chicken as she could. A few months ago she quit eating eat because there was very little flavor in it and disliked the texture. We switched to canned tuna, which made her coat super shiny (albeit oily), but this is strongly discouraged in the professional world. I was trying to get my mom to switch the formula back to rice and chicken, with a bit of the tuna flavoring that Crystal likes.
About the time we switched to the tuna, she started getting particularly thin. She's almost always been thin from her allergies, but this was different. Lately Crystal was also becoming noticeably lethargic: sleeping in someone's bed throughout the day even when we came home and checked on her. Eventually she always came out to sleep in someone's lap, usually mine, and complain for food. These last days she wasn't eating as much and was having coordination difficulties when she walked, but only my brother and I noticed her stumbling and pointed it out to Mom.
Yesterday was a long day of classes for me, and when I got home Crystal was sleeping in my bed again. I stayed up rather late writing/designing a paper, and she spent most of that time sleeping in my lap. At that point she still was able to jump up to where she wanted. When I went to bed I decided to keep her with me, and though she didn't stay under the covers she laid on top of me. Both of us were so tired that neither of us moved until about 5 a.m. when she wanted to cuddle with me again. It's been a while since she's slept with me at night, and since I knew she was feeling so miserable I was more than obliging. When I had to get up I left her under the covers, but she followed me to the bathroom and sat by the tub while I was putting on makeup and getting ready to leave for classes. I told Mom the previous night that she was looking so bad, so she agreed to take Crystal to the vet today.
This morning after a class I talked to my mom. She found that Crystal was unable to move on her own and had explained the situation to the vet, and they said it sounded terminal. When they got to examine her, they found Crystal had a bone marrow cancer, something like leukemia, and probably had a stroke. There was nothing to do. The vet gave Crystal the injection for the sleeping medication and she fell asleep in my mom's lap, but her heart stopped on its own before they gave her the lethal drug.
This cat was beyond amazing. She was there for me when I was sad and would cuddle with me when I was crying. She always insisted on being in my lap, especially when I'm busy working on something. She always purrs when her neck is rubbed and loves being petted. She knows me better than most of my friends do. She even shared my habits, for crying out loud; she was a lot like me. It will be so hard not having her here. It's so hard imagining the next days without her at all. It's so hard to say goodbye to someone when you know you'll never see them again. It's an unbelievable idea you can't really understand until you go through the same thing.
Crystal actually liked getting wet, because when she got sores on her skin the water made her feel better. She liked sitting on the when we were washing our hands and getting her tail wet. This week when she was in my lap she watched video clips of the Cats musical; she liked Mister Mistoffelees of course. She has good taste, but now I have to cry my eyes out every time I listen toMemory, which is all I really feel like listening to now. I noticed yesterday and today that a couple of the neighborhood cats have been near our house. Crystal always like watching them and "defending" our property from other cats, even though she always had to stay indoors. I guess cats have a psychic connection.
But we knew this was coming. We didn't want it to happen, but we knew it would. I haven't cried this much since my grandmother died in March. Pets really are important members of the family. Our last two dogs went the same way. Jake was the most amazing dog anyone could hope for, and Crystal was the greatest earthly gift I ever received. You may think I'm taking this way to hard and being stupid about a cat, and you're welcome to think that, but people who begrudge something dear to them for the sake of another's opinion are the idiots.
As hard as it is to say... Goodbye, Crystal. You're the most beautiful cat in the world, and I will always love you.
Today my wonderful cat, Crystal, had to be put to sleep from irreparable health difficulties.
She was a gift from my parents for my 7th birthday, rescued from an animal shelter as a kitten. She loved being around members of the family, a real people-cat. Beautiful solid black coat, except for two very small patched of brown-black tabby on the inside of her two front paws and for the white hairs when she got older. The very last few bones in her tail had been broken at some point and healed at awkward angles, which you could tell only by stroking the end of her tail.
After a few years she developed nasty sores and started hiding in dark, cool places around the house. She developed allergies to the food we were giving her, so we tried giving her a different brand. Then we tried giving her an expensive rabbit-and-peas hypoallergenic food from the vet which worked for a long time, until she got sick of that texture and vomited all the time. For the past couple years we made our own formula of rice and chicken, though like anyone she tried picking out as much of the chicken as she could. A few months ago she quit eating eat because there was very little flavor in it and disliked the texture. We switched to canned tuna, which made her coat super shiny (albeit oily), but this is strongly discouraged in the professional world. I was trying to get my mom to switch the formula back to rice and chicken, with a bit of the tuna flavoring that Crystal likes.
About the time we switched to the tuna, she started getting particularly thin. She's almost always been thin from her allergies, but this was different. Lately Crystal was also becoming noticeably lethargic: sleeping in someone's bed throughout the day even when we came home and checked on her. Eventually she always came out to sleep in someone's lap, usually mine, and complain for food. These last days she wasn't eating as much and was having coordination difficulties when she walked, but only my brother and I noticed her stumbling and pointed it out to Mom.
Yesterday was a long day of classes for me, and when I got home Crystal was sleeping in my bed again. I stayed up rather late writing/designing a paper, and she spent most of that time sleeping in my lap. At that point she still was able to jump up to where she wanted. When I went to bed I decided to keep her with me, and though she didn't stay under the covers she laid on top of me. Both of us were so tired that neither of us moved until about 5 a.m. when she wanted to cuddle with me again. It's been a while since she's slept with me at night, and since I knew she was feeling so miserable I was more than obliging. When I had to get up I left her under the covers, but she followed me to the bathroom and sat by the tub while I was putting on makeup and getting ready to leave for classes. I told Mom the previous night that she was looking so bad, so she agreed to take Crystal to the vet today.
This morning after a class I talked to my mom. She found that Crystal was unable to move on her own and had explained the situation to the vet, and they said it sounded terminal. When they got to examine her, they found Crystal had a bone marrow cancer, something like leukemia, and probably had a stroke. There was nothing to do. The vet gave Crystal the injection for the sleeping medication and she fell asleep in my mom's lap, but her heart stopped on its own before they gave her the lethal drug.
This cat was beyond amazing. She was there for me when I was sad and would cuddle with me when I was crying. She always insisted on being in my lap, especially when I'm busy working on something. She always purrs when her neck is rubbed and loves being petted. She knows me better than most of my friends do. She even shared my habits, for crying out loud; she was a lot like me. It will be so hard not having her here. It's so hard imagining the next days without her at all. It's so hard to say goodbye to someone when you know you'll never see them again. It's an unbelievable idea you can't really understand until you go through the same thing.
Crystal actually liked getting wet, because when she got sores on her skin the water made her feel better. She liked sitting on the when we were washing our hands and getting her tail wet. This week when she was in my lap she watched video clips of the Cats musical; she liked Mister Mistoffelees of course. She has good taste, but now I have to cry my eyes out every time I listen toMemory, which is all I really feel like listening to now. I noticed yesterday and today that a couple of the neighborhood cats have been near our house. Crystal always like watching them and "defending" our property from other cats, even though she always had to stay indoors. I guess cats have a psychic connection.
But we knew this was coming. We didn't want it to happen, but we knew it would. I haven't cried this much since my grandmother died in March. Pets really are important members of the family. Our last two dogs went the same way. Jake was the most amazing dog anyone could hope for, and Crystal was the greatest earthly gift I ever received. You may think I'm taking this way to hard and being stupid about a cat, and you're welcome to think that, but people who begrudge something dear to them for the sake of another's opinion are the idiots.
As hard as it is to say... Goodbye, Crystal. You're the most beautiful cat in the world, and I will always love you.
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Junk and Stuff! YEY HUG!
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For You...
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Recent stuff going on:
- I'm getting a Macbook Pro for the new school year!
- I just bought the Adobe Creative Suite 4 Design Premium software package! Hoorah for student discounts!
- Some minor family drama stuff going on since Grandma died. :/
- Remodeling our house! I'm painting the counters to imitate marble! I'll get some more pics and maybe show off my handiwork.
I'm also having another collab auction on Gaia [gaiaonline.com] with a Mythical Creatures theme. It's still in the setup/recruit phase, but if you check out my Gaia profile you could find the thread and info in the "My Posts" link. www.gaiaonline.com/profiles/12…
And, I bought Cinema Bizarre's Final Attraction album and went shopping at Hot Topic for the first time ever! Got a Cinema Bizarre shirt, armwarmers, and purple nail polish. I highly recommend checking out Cinema Bizarre; they're an amazing group and pretty much my favourite band ever now.
In other news, I figured out how to fix my scanner issues! So when I get my Macbook Pro [probably tomorrow] I'll have that all fixed up and start with the art makin' again. YAY! Just in time to get bogged down with college stuff again, except next semester is Sophomore Check to see if us art majors get to keep being art majors. D: If I don't make the cut I'll just have to choose one of the orther super cool majors.
See you people later! buh-bye!
- Remodeling our house! I'm painting the counters to imitate marble! I'll get some more pics and maybe show off my handiwork.
- Some minor family drama stuff going on since Grandma died. :/
- I just bought the Adobe Creative Suite 4 Design Premium software package! Hoorah for student discounts!
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Henceforth, let us commence!
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Yaaaay! I hit 4444 pageviews today; go me! And, well, you too, since everybody else kinda gave 'em to me. But still, YAAAY! I might create a celebratory image to accommodate this personal passive milestone, but it'll have to be done digitally since my scanner still isn't recognized as a TWAIN device.
I've seriously got to get that fixed.
Anyway, I hope everybody's had a nice bunching of holidays. I know I'm way off when I post these journal things, bu I can live with it. Also, this update is an excuse to list out my New Year's resolutions in an area which I will likely remember where I put them. Now to try and remember all of mine...and make up some new ones.
・ Get a paying job sometime this semester
・ Commit to doing better in schoolwork and personal projects
・ Improve time management and willpower!!
・ Learn & improve more in Japanese, guitar, and art
・ Focus on eating healthier and exercising
・ Attain black belt degree in a satisfactory manner [or at least advanced brown belt]
・ Take better care of Mickey
・ Cut down on unreasonable Internet time-wasting
・ Give more thank-yous for things I am given [faves, watches, college money, etc.]
- Become more socially active [i.e., get a date]
What I mean by "in a satisfactory manner" is that I pass the test(s) with good effort outside of class, instead of huffing and puffing and stumbling through forms and kicks like a wimp (as I have with previous tests). I have no excuse for this behaviour, and it needs be eradicated.
Oh yes, I do karate. And art. And horseback riding.
Perhaps along with getting a job I can start selling prints and commission and whatnot. I dunno. Depends on how much I can improve my art. I can certainly make a few fanarts to see if I can increase my audience. I wouldn't call that selling myself out, since I always make a point to enjoy the things I draw, and draw the things I enjoy. So if you happen to find Kakashi sparring with Axel in Hojo's laboratory, don't think too far into it.
Spontaneously I was asked to design a logo for my dojo's monthly/quarterly fight thing, so I'm working on that. I can turn it in as my out-of-class project for the required art contest at school. Yaay.
Aside from all that, I'm rather excited about my schedule this semester. I got all the time slots I wanted for my classes, and some of my classes look kickarse cool [Intro to Design Tech and Human Anatomy, namely]. Not looking forward to Computer II or English 103 though. There's also a good chance I'll be playing soccer as well yaay!
See you wonderful, beautiful people later! You beautiful, beautiful people, you. Beautiful.
I've seriously got to get that fixed.
Anyway, I hope everybody's had a nice bunching of holidays. I know I'm way off when I post these journal things, bu I can live with it. Also, this update is an excuse to list out my New Year's resolutions in an area which I will likely remember where I put them. Now to try and remember all of mine...and make up some new ones.
・ Get a paying job sometime this semester
・ Commit to doing better in schoolwork and personal projects
・ Improve time management and willpower!!
・ Learn & improve more in Japanese, guitar, and art
・ Focus on eating healthier and exercising
・ Attain black belt degree in a satisfactory manner [or at least advanced brown belt]
・ Take better care of Mickey
・ Cut down on unreasonable Internet time-wasting
・ Give more thank-yous for things I am given [faves, watches, college money, etc.]
- Become more socially active [i.e., get a date]
What I mean by "in a satisfactory manner" is that I pass the test(s) with good effort outside of class, instead of huffing and puffing and stumbling through forms and kicks like a wimp (as I have with previous tests). I have no excuse for this behaviour, and it needs be eradicated.
Oh yes, I do karate. And art. And horseback riding.
Perhaps along with getting a job I can start selling prints and commission and whatnot. I dunno. Depends on how much I can improve my art. I can certainly make a few fanarts to see if I can increase my audience. I wouldn't call that selling myself out, since I always make a point to enjoy the things I draw, and draw the things I enjoy. So if you happen to find Kakashi sparring with Axel in Hojo's laboratory, don't think too far into it.
Spontaneously I was asked to design a logo for my dojo's monthly/quarterly fight thing, so I'm working on that. I can turn it in as my out-of-class project for the required art contest at school. Yaay.
Aside from all that, I'm rather excited about my schedule this semester. I got all the time slots I wanted for my classes, and some of my classes look kickarse cool [Intro to Design Tech and Human Anatomy, namely]. Not looking forward to Computer II or English 103 though. There's also a good chance I'll be playing soccer as well yaay!
See you wonderful, beautiful people later! You beautiful, beautiful people, you. Beautiful.
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